It hit me today.
I need to stop focusing so much on 'the number' and moreso on how I feel.
Lately, I have lost the feeling...the feeling of being in control, of really genuinely feeling good about myself. Why?
I'm not sure what the answer is, but I am determined as hell to figure it out. Today, Kathy and I started what is going to be our new regiment at the gym. 4 days a week. 2 days will be an hour on the elliptical, the other 2 will be 30 minutes followed by alternate days of weights.
Earlier today, I toyed with the idea of doing the Broad Street Run this May. 10 miles. TEN MILES. Dear Lord to say it outloud makes it sound even worse...the most I have ever done is a 5k, and frankly, 10 is a lot more than 3.2.
Then - I saw a post on friend's blog about being inspired...she talked about a post she read on a blog that she follows. So I decided to read the post, and watch a video - and it hit me like a ton of bricks in the face. I mean really, to my core - made it all very real for me. This isn't about what I am saying that I'm going to do - it's about DOING it. There is no such thing as someday, it needs to be right now. That simple.
Here's the blog: bendoeslife.com
The video is on the right hand side of the home page. I'm warning you - I cried throughout the entire thing.