Friday, February 19, 2010


Mom's surgery went well. She's home resting, or at least trying to...the doctor was happy with the results and she doesn't have to see the cardiologist for 3 months. Huge relief and stress lifted.

Giving up...

Well, Lent has started, and I gave up bread. That should help, right?

Maybe I need to give up food altogether...nah, it'd never work. I feel like the last few days have been little, tiny mini steps of progress. Nothing huge, but I am not moving backwards anymore. At least not for now.

I really need some motivation to smack me in the back of the head.

Tuesday, February 16, 2010

Fat Tuesday

Well, happy Mardi Gras. I hope everyone else ate their faces off today and got it out of their systems collectively, because I sure as hell did. And I feel like total shit about it.

Good reminder. When I overdo it - I pay the consequences.

Little bit of stress, mom is having some surgery tomorrow morning. While she's acting like it's no big deal, it's her heart. Not a root canal. I've slept like shit the last 2 nights, and my eating habits have been ERRATIC.

I need to get through tomorrow, and I'll be good. I wish I had time for the treadmill. I could use the QT.

Monday, February 15, 2010

Baby steps

Back to back entries. I'm surprised myself. I made some changes today, that I plan to stick with going forward...can't disclose them just yet.

I need to do this, for me. Not for anyone but myself. As soon as I lose that motivation and desire to do for me, I'm done.

So tonight, looking back on day 1 version who knows, I'm content.

Sunday, February 14, 2010


I've gotten way off the path that I need to be on, and it's time to stop making excuses.