I think I was a bit premature in my post yesterday. I weighed this morning, and while I had a feeling I had gained over the holidays, I didn't think it would be 5 pounds.

There's no way that I am going to lose that 5, and an additional 15 in the next 35 days. Not when it took me nearly two months to lose the inital 20.

Fuck.

I'm going to be realistic. Kath and I start back to the gym today after a week and a half off, and I would like to do 4 days a week. If I can do that, go back on Phase 1 for the next 2 weeks... I am going to set my goal - REALISTICALLY - at 13 by my birthday. That would put me at 28 total since starting November 1.

New Years resolution?

Not so much...moreso of a recommitment - is that a word? - to continue to lose weight. I have managed to lose 20 since November 1, and while I am thrilled with that, and that was my first goal, I am nowhere near done. I am trying to remain realistic and not set unreasonable goals. It is the beginning of the year, the holidays are done - for now - and I can focus on myself again.

My next goal, is to lose another 15 by my birthday...

Ready - go.

Tis the season...

To stuff your face?

I survived Christmas Eve and Christmas...didn't eat too badly, but it was definitely more than I have eaten in the last few months. I felt pretty gross and uncomfortable til last night...now we have all this damn snow and I can't even get to the gym. Hoping to get back on track in the next day or so, but not going to go overboard...have a few things this week that will be tricky to eat as good as I want to, including NYE. But I know what I need to do, and I plan on doing it.

Christmas came early...

Well, I haven't updated in a few days, mostly because I was pretty bullshit about being standstill with my weight for awhile...but - TODAY...

I HIT THE 20 POUND MARK!!!!!!!!!

My goal was to be down 20 by the end of the year - and I hit it with over a week to spare.

When will I learn?

Tried eating pasta again last night. Wasn't too long before I got violently sick. It's one thing if it happens at home, when I am by myself. Another when I am out. You would think after it happening once I would know I have to stay away from it. UGH

No real update the last few days, because there's not much to say. Only made it to the gym twice so far this week...feeling kind of blah. Need to rediscover my motivation.

I suppose I forgot how tough this time of year can be.

Every time you turn around, it's another party, another round of drinks, another dessert table - AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.

Ok. I feel better now.

Saturday was Amaya's 2nd birthday party. I could have done a lot better with my eating, but I was an asshole and didn't eat breakfast, or lunch, so by the time I got there and the party started, I was starving. I know better.

Same with Sunday. Reilly Christmas party after rehearsal, didn't eat anything beforehand. By 5pm I was so hungry I was lightheaded. I tried to make as good choices as I could, with what was available but it's tough.

I did make it to the gym this morning. Hoping to get in 3 or 4 days this week again.