Crazed.

I haven't updated in forever. Things have been nuts.

Finally got a job....relieved! Started Monday, very grateful and happy to be working again.
The flipside of that, is my entire schedule/routine/whatever the hell you want to call what I considered to be normal the last 10 months, has been flipped upside down.

I have been up at 6:45 am every day this week. I am eating breakfast, lunch, dinner - not snacking in between, eating whenever I needed to - read: every 2-3 hours, as I had been for the last 4 months. My body is in serious WTF mode. I also have no had the time or energy to get to the gym, which I really want to do...cannot wait to get back into a groove and try to at least get there 3 nights a week. No way in hell I will get there before work, unless it is one of my late days.

My eating habits have changed...trying to pack my lunch as best I can, but again I have gotten so used to eating the way I have for months. Even moreso why I need the exercise consistent.

Sigh. Always a challenge...

Sometimes, it just hits you

Saw a lot of people this past weekend that I have not seen in awhile...quite a few made comments about my weight, so people are noticing. It is great to have that positive reinforcement. Obviously, I see myself every day, and while I do feel better, my clothes are fitting differently, when someone I have not seen in a few months asks if I am losing weight, it helps. Also, I am really starting to notice it in some pictures, especially in my face. Now the rest of me needs to catch up!

Haven't been to the gym at all this week... having a tough time not being distracted. It is hard for me to want to focus on myself, when people around me are suffering. This is a tough lesson in not being able to 'fix' for other people, all of the time. I'm not doing too well with it.

So, my two weeks didn't go nearly as well as I wanted them to, and I'm not surprised. Very distracted right now by a lot of other things in life, so I am finding it tough to focus.

Wondering when it will all fall into place.