Tis the season...

To stuff your face?

I survived Christmas Eve and Christmas...didn't eat too badly, but it was definitely more than I have eaten in the last few months. I felt pretty gross and uncomfortable til last night...now we have all this damn snow and I can't even get to the gym. Hoping to get back on track in the next day or so, but not going to go overboard...have a few things this week that will be tricky to eat as good as I want to, including NYE. But I know what I need to do, and I plan on doing it.

Christmas came early...

Well, I haven't updated in a few days, mostly because I was pretty bullshit about being standstill with my weight for awhile...but - TODAY...

I HIT THE 20 POUND MARK!!!!!!!!!

My goal was to be down 20 by the end of the year - and I hit it with over a week to spare.

When will I learn?

Tried eating pasta again last night. Wasn't too long before I got violently sick. It's one thing if it happens at home, when I am by myself. Another when I am out. You would think after it happening once I would know I have to stay away from it. UGH

No real update the last few days, because there's not much to say. Only made it to the gym twice so far this week...feeling kind of blah. Need to rediscover my motivation.

I suppose I forgot how tough this time of year can be.

Every time you turn around, it's another party, another round of drinks, another dessert table - AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.

Ok. I feel better now.

Saturday was Amaya's 2nd birthday party. I could have done a lot better with my eating, but I was an asshole and didn't eat breakfast, or lunch, so by the time I got there and the party started, I was starving. I know better.

Same with Sunday. Reilly Christmas party after rehearsal, didn't eat anything beforehand. By 5pm I was so hungry I was lightheaded. I tried to make as good choices as I could, with what was available but it's tough.

I did make it to the gym this morning. Hoping to get in 3 or 4 days this week again.

Took yesterday off from the gym. I spent 4 hours in the car, and my legs were tight when I woke up yesterday as it was. May go today...we'll see how I am feeling this afternoon.

Down another 1.5...woooo!

New record?

Today is Thursday. I have been to the gym Monday, Tuesday, and Wednesday so far this week. Granted - I am not there for 3 hours at a time, but still - 3 days in a week - let a lone in a row...that has never happened before. Also went 3 days last week too...

Taking today off probably, and then back tomorrow. And surprisingly, I don't hate going!

I'm starting to slip.

I need to refocus, fast - before I get out of control.

Almost forgot...

Weighed in today, and have officially hit the 15 pound mark. Took a little more than a month, but hey - I am older than I was the last time through this, and I had a rough week in the middle there.

I WILL hit 20 by the end of this month!

Challenges.

Another weekend has gone by, and I think for the most part, I did alright. I am finding it to be a bit easier when I have to eat out and with others, to resist eating certain things. Saturday after the parade, we went to dinner and while everyone else dug into the bread basket, I didn't have any. We also didn't do any appetizers, regardless of how hungry we were. I did get pasta for dinner - it also had crab meat, shitake mushrooms and plum tomatos with a real light sauce to it. I barely ate the pasta, and what little I did it - not good. Within 20 minutes I was sick. Did not take long at all to realize that I am not ready for that just yet, not even in the smallest amount. I have not had bread, pasta, etc in 6 weeks and just the small amount I did have, went right through me.

So, for now it is back to rediscovering the other things that I like and can tolerate for now. The next few weeks will be tough. Christmas time is always tough. But having already started losing weight I am motivated, and don't feel like I NEED to eat candy or Christmas cookies just because they are there in front of me.

Here we are at Friday again...pretty good week, got back on track. Ate a lot better, made it to the gym 3 times so far. I am sure I won't get a chance to update over the weekend, so keep your fingers crossed I am able to keep focused, and happy with the weigh in on Monday.

Yesterday was tough on many levels.

I didn't update, because I was gone all day...left the house and 7am, and didn't get home until 5. Promptly followed by a 'nap' which lead to me sleeping until this morning.

Funerals are draining. Emotionally, mentally. On top of that, it was miserable weather. Rain, at times real bad - flooding, windy. Nothing like standing at a gravesite with the rain coming in sideways.

After that, we get to the luncheon...at an Italian restaurant. I knew what was coming. Bruschetta, bread basket, salad (whew), penne, entree (fish with some vegetables I could eat) and ice cream for dessert.

Normally, I'd embrace the comfort food. Between the day itself, and weather making it that much more difficult to deal with, I would have eaten half that basket of bread on my own. Yesterday, I was good. No bread, no penne, no ice cream. Believe me, I wanted it, but I refrained.